Sleeping Problem and Life in General

Life feels a little bittersweet at the moment. As the school semester draws to a close, I can't help but feel a bit paranoid about the future. Recently I've been feeling lazy, and not particularly in a hurry to decide on what I would want to do in my future. Sure, I have plans and ideas and thoughts, but somehow I want to know that I'm really pursuing some thing that will give me utmost satisfaction and that this thing can keep me interested for at least the next 20 to 30 years? It's really difficult for me to continuously engage in something I have limited interest in, but I fear that's how life may become soon enough. Not everyone has the luxury to get paid doing what they love, and it's alright. After all, everyone has a part to play in the economy. :)

I've decided to write a little bit more about what's been going on from now on. For many years, I've avoided writing about overly personal issues, or banal daily life rants. Frankly, I don't think anyone wants to read that because my life is really quite boring.

Finals are in 11 days and I can't wait to get it over with. You have no idea how pleased I am to get out of school once and for all.

As the title suggests... I'm not sure what's been going on but I've been having problems sleeping the past few weeks. I'm not much of a dreamer, so I completely hate nights when I dream and dream and dream, and wake up feeling like a dead fish. I feel continually exhausted even after long sleep times (7-10 hours) and no matter how much I sleep, I feel really lethargic and ill if I were to do something active the next day (e.g. run for a bus). I take really long to fall asleep even if I'm super tired, and my whole "sleep" routine is ruined the moment I have interrupted sleep. Interrupted sleep means a cranky, grouchy next-day. It's terrible. I suppose there's "a lot on my mind", but honestly I think of nothing but food and music most of the time... Haha so...

I have many photos to share and stuff I want to write about. But until finals are over (oh goodness, five modules!), I really need to sit tight in my study chair and focus.

Sense of urgency, possess me now.